One of the things I've noticed in more stark relief this summer than when I was working is how much the boys want. When given a cheeseburger hot off the grill last night, Tank immediately asked if there was more. He had yet to take a bite of the burger in front of him.
They often seem to be looking for the next thing and I suppose they get that from me. I've never been a "live in the moment" kind of girl. I'm always wondering what's around the corner; what comes next.
Observing this quality in them is helping me to censor it in myself. It looks like I'm probably going back to work here at least for a while. Instead of wanting more more more time at home I am trying to focus on being still, being grateful for the time I've had at home with my children and with myself and soaking it up while it lasts. How often do folks get a random summer off to play in adult life?
I've felt shifts in many areas that I will attempt to identify and articulate in the coming days. But for now, I'm just going to take each day as it comes and enjoy it fully.